LOOSING

YESTERDAY WAS A VERY DEPRESSING DAY
NOT BECAUSE OF THE SCANNING THAT HAPPENED AT SCHOOL
BUT HOW I FORGOT TO TEXT MY GOOD FRIEND JANNA
AND WARN HER NOT TO BRING HER ELECTRONICS
BUT I CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER MY OWN PASSWORDS FROM MY E-MAIL ACCOUNT
AND I'M GOING TO REMEMBER TO TELL SOMEONE NOT TO BRING THEIR STUFF.
I HAVE PROBLEMS
I'M GOING TO HAVE TO PULL MYSELF TOGETHER
AND STOP LOOSING MY MEMORY
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S POSSIBLE TO FORCE MYSELF TO REMEMBER A FEW THINGS.
HOPEFULLY JANNA WOULD BE ABLE TO FORGIVE.
IF SHE DOESN'T THEN I UNDERSTAND
BUT I WOULDN'T BARE TO SEE HER PISSED OF
SHE MAY SAY THAT SHE'S OKAY BUT I DON'T BUY IT
SHE IS IN THAT ANGER MOMENT THAT MAKES HER THINK
IF WE REALLY CARE FOR HER.
I WOULD FEEL THE SAME WAY THOUGH IF MY OWN FRIENDS FORGET ABOUT ME.
HOPEFULLY JANNA, WITH THE BOTTOM OF YOUR HEART YOU WOULD FIND A WAY
NOT ONLY TO FORGIVE ME BUT ALSO SONYA
BECAUSE IF WE LOOSE YOU IT WON'T FEEL THE SAME WAY FROM NOW AND THEN.
WE WOULD LOOSE NOT ONLY A FRIEND BUT A SISTER.
I'M SO SORRY JANNA...

THE NIGHTMARE

Last night I had a nightmare.
I was trying to wake up but something stopped me.
I wasn't sure if I was actually sleeping or maybe I was dreaming.
at school, now I felt sleepy.
I couldn't sleep last night after that happened.
I just hope that later this night I will be able to
sleep and not have the same nightmare because it's really scary.

A HUG IS ALL I NEED

I need a hug
A hug that will make me feel protected.
a hug that will make me feel warm.
I get hugs from my family.....
my friends....
but not the guy that I like.
I need a hug from a person I am in love with
a person who is blinded...
who doesn't notice that someone has feelings for him.

ALONE

I'M ALL ALONE IN SCHOOL.
I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO.
I'M SITTING ALL ALONE IN A CLASS ROOM
WONDERING WHAT TO DO.
I'M ON THE COMPUTER THOUGH...
TYPING...A POEM WITH FEELINGS....
A POEM WHERE I'M ACTUALLY ABLE
TO EXPRESS HOW I'M FEELING AT THIS VERY MOMENT.
I WONDER WHERE MY FRIENDS HAVE GONE?
I DON'T SEE SONYA...
I DON'T SEE SAMANTHA...
I DON'T SEE JANNA..
I DON'T SEE YE YAN
I SEE NO ONE THAT I LOVE...
ALL OF THEM ARE GONE.
I WONDER A LOT IF I'M ALWAYS THE ONLY ONE WHO STAYS ALL BY HERSELF
ALONE IN THE WORLD OF THE DEAD
THE WORLD OF THE IGNORANTS....
BUT...I GUESS IT'S ONLY FOR TODAY.
I HAVE SOMEONE THOUGH
SOMEONE WHO WAS ALWAYS WITH ME
SINCE THE DAY SHE WAS BORN
SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY LISTENS AND UNDERSTAND HOW I'M FEELING
THAT SOMEONE IS MY LITTLE SISTER.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO WITHOUT HER...
MAYBE MY LIFE WOULD BE MORE MISERABLE....IF SHE WASN'T HERE WITH ME.
I WISH TO FIND A WAY TO THANK HER...
TO THANK HER FOR BEING HERE WITH ME.